Anytime we foresee or face change in what we call our “normal”, there is an uncertainty of what it will bring. The change may be a moving to a new town or state, starting a new chapter as a college student, or simply a change in schedule. Whatever the change, whether it be anticipated or completely out of the blue, whether you’re prepared for it or grasping for air, change affects us.
It’s my tendency to wonder if I am ready for the change. Am I strong enough to face the unknown and even the discomforts of the change? Is there any possible way to stay in “the normal”? And with this thoughts afloat in my mind it is easy to give way to the worry and anxiety and fear that accompanies change. Please don’t tell me I’m alone in this, the I-can’t-sleep-because-I’m-to0-busy-planning-all-the-what-if-scenarios in this so called season of change. Please. Why is there an unspoken negative connotation to the current changes we face? There is hope that this change will be over soon, things can go back to normal, and none of this ever happened…whew, I can breath again. But like I said, in the meantime worry and fear lurk behind the corner of “what I know” and “change”.
As David and I are a few weeks into a changed lifestyle (he started classes at the end of July) and the change will continue through the course of his program and as the leaves change in the Fall so does my schedule as a paraprofessional and personal fitness trainer, I have had the constant “what if I’m not strong enough” flash through my mind.
What if I can’t handle the pressures of being married to a medical student? What if my schedule is too packed with responsibilities? What if I struggle to make it through the day?
But then I took a step back, gave myself a reality check and asked isn’t there a better way to approach change. Yes, change is difficult. Change is uncertain. But change is good. It’s good because I realize I can’t do it on my own- I need something outside of myself that is constant, unchanging. (“For I the Lord do not change…Malichi 3:6) It’s good because change brings forth personal growth and refinement.
Strength and dignity are her clothing, and she laughs at the time to come.
- My strength is not my own. The original Hebrew for strength is ‘oz, a masculine noun from the root meaning to prevail, to be made strong. The same word has been used to describe God’s character.
“You have a mighty arm; strong is your hand, high your right hand.” Psalm 89:13
To cloth myself with strength is to cloth myself with God. I am strong enough to face change because I look to God for strength and counsel and provision. I choose to rely on him to meet the challenges of change and uncertainty.
“Seek the Lord and his strength;
seek his presence continually!
1 Chronicles 16:11
- I surrender to God. Strength and dignity are so much a part of her character, that it is described as her clothing. Her character is reflected as such because she has allowed God to change her from the inside out. She has surrendered herself to God and she has submitted herself to be used by Him.
- I am free to face the day with joy. Fear and worries about life do not define her. She laughs at days to come. She does not run from change, but embraces it with joy. Can you imagine…To laugh at days to come and approach change with a thankful heart verses being overcome by fear and worry.
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.”
This season of change is filled with uncertainty for David and I. I could easily sit here and continue to add to the list of fears and uncertainties, the what-ifs, but instead I will choose to be thankful and laugh at what is to come.
I’m thankful for new friendships.
I’m thankful for jobs that engage my interests and education.
I’m thankful for a home with two bedrooms so David can study at home.
I’m thankful for the resources to bake. (a good study break tactic)
What are you thankful for in your season of change?